J.E.S.S.I.C.A.A.L.O.U.I.S.E

I have a whole lot of things to blog about. I just have to let them out :(

Why are people so pretentious?

Why can't everyone be themselves instead
of pretending in front of others and the internet.
I hate it when people who you know try
to act different when they're with new people.
& when you actually know them really well,
they're a total dork.
It seem so wrong & stupid.
aren't they clever enough to know that
the person next to you actually knows how they really is?
what's so good about pretending to be someone else who you are not?
Are they scared to show their true colors to their people?
Some even lie & brag about stuffs to make
themselves more interesting.
Lets say you think being pretentious will make you unique.
But how the hell can you be unique when youre already
pretencious & lying?
Don't you know how it feels when people know the truth about you?
fucking malu right?
I don't know how it feels like but i can imagine.
How the hell do you even live your life when you have
more than one personalities at the same time?

"Being pretentious is one thing.
But then being two face at the
same time is totally oh my god -.-"

I am sure many people know people
who are like that. I don't care how are they trying to act.
But sometimes i just wonder why. Its so stupid.

For me,

One of the difficulties in life to go thru
is meeting new people & being able to trust them.
I used to trust people too easily.
but since this experience i had,
I am afraid to trust anyone who
i've just met & make new friends.

First their nice to you.
Then when they know your weakness,
they climb over your head.
It happened to me.
But i just kept my mouth shut cos i respect people.
But i guess they've crossed the line.
I am always the nice girl i guess.
But once you tick me off, there's no turning back.
& I always control myself not to get mad
cos i know its gonna be kinda nasty.
Some just wanna bring me down.
cos their jealous of people's happiness & confidence.
I will never let that happen to me.

I love my boyfriend & i dont care what others think.
ya so what if he's foreign?
Doesnt mean he's gonna cheat me wad.
stupid or what?
Don't judge him when u only know him for like what?
1 second.
DONT JUDGE US
when you only know for about us for 5 minutes.
Maybe you never felt true love before.
Thats why you don't know how "trust" feels like
"i trust him too much?"
LIKE DUH. Of course i do.
oh ya. In case you don't know.
we only been together for almost 3 years but,
We've been thru a whole lot together.
I think uh if he wanna cheat me he
cheated on me long long time ago already.
If he wanna cheat me you think he even gives a
shit to go thru so much with me?
You know what? go mirror yourself first before
you judge people's relationship. -.-
Don't get jealous of people's happiness.
Go find your own.
Don't waste your time.
"If you wanna say something? then come say it to my face"
dont talk behind behind. that shows how much
of a coward you are. & you act all tough!
oh my dear 'shamu'.
yes. i am talking about you.

Picture of the day.

i love this girl!
nothing can break us up
& we'll always have each other nomatter what ! :D

xoxo